i know no one pays attention to my blog. which is probably why i dont post anything.
my last post was feb 2007. how crazy has my world turned since then. alone again. stuck in a shitty place by myself again.
a sense of abandonment pervades, but is shouted down by roaring winds and the knowledge that once i leave the plane, i am in control of my life albeit for only a pittance of my life each time....

eh heh

There are striated clouds that are still lightish yellow, starting to turn pink. It reminds me of the last night Kevin and I had together, sitting outside on the balcony of the Marriot in Okinawa, watching the sun sink lower and lower behind the trees, the vibrant blue water of the "Pacific, and the islands in the distance, under a blanket and the whole time thinking that there was absolutely NOTHING I wouldn't give to just stop time for a little while, to stop the sun from sinking, stop the earth from spinning, please, stop everything, so we could just sit there and love each other for a while without the dusk creeping up on one side and the hands of time sneaking up on the other side, hauntingly reminding me that time stops for nothing and that that last bit of daylight with my true love would have to last me many months ahead of heat, sweat, sand, tears, maybe blood, and lonliness till I see him again. But in the same way that time waits for no one, and the same way that he plays no favorites, by the same natural laws he cannot keep true lovers apart, no matter how much the earth spins and no matter how much space is between us...one thing that time cannot do is stretch the miles. The six-thousand some-odd miles will not grow no matter how long we have to be apart. I love Kevin Haddon, and I will love him more every day for the rest of my life and beyond, beyond time, beyond space and distance, beyond mountains and deserts, and most especially, beyond the sea."

someone wrote that about me. can you believe it?

fuck you you fuckin fuck

dont ask.
absolut+kahlua+landolakes-half&half+ice.
sushi.
i have crazy ideas about religion, science, abortion, morality, politics, the environment.
i am a jack of all trades and a master of none.
i have an opinion on most everything.
i know a little about most everything.
i am brutally honest.
i i i i i, yeah i know.
fuck off.
i have the best friend, lover, partner, wife in the world.